Posted on October 30th, 2011 No comments
I’ve set up base camp at Wegmans… one of the last remaining strongholds. I’m moving on the 24th hour with no electricity or heat after the mighty Nor’easter of October 29th, 2011 ripped through our once prosperous town, Phoenixville. I salvage what I can from Wegmans. Hot food, hot coffee, cold beer, wireless internet and power. I’m surrounded by others like me.
Conditions are poor at home. Food rations are low. I’ve thought about eating Lumpy, the foster cat I’ve been nursing back to health. Electrical devices are dead. Time is now just a faded concept, no longer a reality. I don’t know when I went to bed, when I woke up or when I ate last. All that is left is faith and hope. I do not believe in faith, and hope… even less.
My father has told me time and time again the story of Pandora’s box. When it was opened, all the evils of the world escaped and all that was left in the box was hope. “What was hope doing in the box anyway?” he would say, leaving for me to figure out my own answer. I’ve finally figured it out. Hope was just another evil, the weakest of all. Tortured, beaten, and abused by the rest and left to die on it’s own. Is that something you would want on your side?
Religion is not my thing, but I will say it anyway… God Bless Wegmans.
Posted on October 27th, 2011 No comments
Well over a year since I blogged last! I guess that mean’s I’ve been busy… or lazy. Probably lazy. Or maybe busy… playing Halo. A lot has changed in the past year. I’m still at Vanguard and have had several different roles.
I suppose the biggest change in my life right now is starting school Probably the biggest reason why I’m posting right now is to assist in my effort to procrastinate. My first real java program is due Monday. It needs to be able to average 3 integers. Sounds easy enough, but boy am I lost! Also I’m foster parenting a kitten. I’ll write more about her later.
Posted on June 4th, 2010 2 comments
Yay! I finally did it! On to the next chapter of my life! After more than a full year of being unemployed I found a job. I annihilated my interviews. I destroyed the background screen. I passed the drug test with flying colors! And Monday is my first day as a Client Relationship Associate at Vanguard Investments.
The feeling of relief I have right now can’t be expressed with words (partially due to my poor vocabulary), but I feel more fortunate than anything. I was lucky enough to have a steady stream of unemployment checks to aid me in my job search through the past year and I understand the daily struggle for the millions of Americans out there. Little by little, as each day passes the anxiety caused by uncertainty creeps its way closer and closer to your bloodstream. After about 9 months it is in full circulation. I can’t even begin to imagine what it is like for those providing for a family and with greater financial obligations than my own.
I’m really excited to begin work on Monday, but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t still nervous. At the moment my employment is contingent upon my ability to pass the Series 6 and 63 license exams within approximately 1 month’s time. From my understanding I will receive top notch training from industry experts to help prepare me for the examination, but I won’t be completely comfortable until I’m in my desk doing what I was hired to do.
Those that know me are probably thinking “Why is this Ben Force wearing a tie to work?! He’s supposed to be making video games!” Never in a million years could I have predicted such a dramatic switch from video game development to investment management. THQ Wireless was great to me, and if they didn’t close their doors in San Diego I think that I actually could have worked it into something awesome, but getting laid off in the game industry is a scary feeling. Even when the economy is good there are very few places to turn to without moving, and with unemployment so high I feel studios aren’t looking very far for talent. Almost every week I hear about studios cutting dozens of jobs. For a guy with no programing skills and whose main qualification is a love of games, options can be bleak. I’m hoping having a business background and learning the true value of a dollar will open far more doors for me .
I think I’m a sensible young man. I got a good head on my shoulders. I’ve managed my money well through times of difficulty. I follow stocks in industries I’m interested in. I listen to the financial news… and even read some of it! Why not try my hand at investment management education? For me, making games was fun, but the people I worked with is what made it so awesome. If I can find that at Vanguard, and at the same time play my role in a system that helps people achieve their financial goals, I will be a happy man.
Posted on June 5th, 2009 No comments
Yesterday I had the opportunity to attend E3 for the first time since before Half-life 2 was released. Wow! What an improvement! I had so much fun even though I was flying solo. Actually I think that’s the best way to roll at E3. Before I even showed my badge, or should I say my friend’s badge, I got a free copy of Battlefield 1943 and a T-Shirt. Score.
Posted on April 16th, 2009 4 comments
I thought I’d post these rather than add them to my 3D page. They are a bit old but I think they still stand up good even after all these years. I’m dating these at Winter 05, so probably my last models without normal maps These are both roughly 500 tris with 512 textures.
Carnivorous Plant 01
This guy is based off of a dream I had quite often when I was a kid. I wanted to try something a bit nintendofied.
From 3D Art
Carnivorous Plant 02
For this one I wanted something a bit darker, some kind of strange dungeon plant. It sucks up flies that float around its snout.
From 3D Art
Posted on April 15th, 2009 No comments
I had no idea what I was getting into when I moved from Philadelphia to San Diego for a job as a QA Engineer at THQ Wireless. I chalk it up to the “Force Luck”, but I fell into the lap of some of the most talented individuals in the industry. The one thing I learned during my time there that stands out above all the rest is that it’s really damn hard to survive as a publisher of mobile content for a multitude of reasons. I’d like to point out a few of my observations for anyone interested.
Posted on April 13th, 2009 No comments
Well today I got the call, my services were no longer needed at THQ Wireless. This didn’t really come as a surprise to me, but I’m still very saddened by it. If I can someday work in an office with as much talent, drive and ambition as my colleagues from THQ Wireless San Diego, I would again find myself at home. Read the rest of this entry »